Pregnancy Announcements

When I see them on social media, I don't necessarily feel sad, angry, or hurt. I feel worried. Grim, even. And, as I watch an acquaintance endure a very similar infant loss this week, I feel my worries are confirmed. Even though both of our circumstances were wildly unlikely, part of me says, "See? See …

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Back at Brooke’s

We left the hospital in Iowa City to go to my cousin's house in Cedar Rapids. Brooke, my God-send during this time, had been caring for Natalie as needed during my hospital stay, especially after Marie was born. My mom had been staying with her as well. I rode with Kevin. It's mostly a blur, …

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The Next Day

I awoke numb, exhausted, a sandpaper pit in my stomach. Brushed teeth, showered. Every step was a dragging shuffle. I turned on The Weather Channel as background noise. Made myself half presentable and walked down the hall to the reception desk. "We are checking out today, but will be a bit behind. Our daughter passed …

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Marie's bear keeps falling onto the floor, which really bothers me, so I brought up the car seat that should have been hers. It makes me feel better, at least.